Amelia told me after my trip to Ukraine, she wants to leave my place and move. I really do not understand her mindset, I can see in her eyes the inner turmoil. I suspect Kaye put a curse on her and us, its so sudden and dramatic. Amelia for all her actions is a sweet person, which is far more than I can say for all the other people I know (bar some). My biggest regret is not marrying her earlier. My advice if I could time travel backwards to my fatter stupid self-was to appreciate time with this gentle soul and marry her.
I really in the bottomless pit of my heart hope that she would change her mind and there will be a happy ending for us.
So what shall I do- its an impossible situation, if she stays she will suffer, if she goes I will suffer. Better her than me, for I am like the mountain. I just hope I am strong enough not to revert to my old ways.
There is a higher vantage point available to you, but it is obscured by the visible peak of personal ambition. As my Iching states
"To climb to this higher plane, you must shake off the desires and fears of the conscious, visible world around you.
To make this journey you must quiet the Ego, empty your mind of past and future, and dwell totally in the moment at hand.
Thorough mindfulness of what is before you is the only tranquility.
Be. Here. Now."